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Risto Vae
"Cut Well"
by Elanor Gardner
A
very special pair of scissors and a hobbit in need of a haircut.
First
part of the "Scissors & Swords" series
Prequel to Hebel
(Warning: Adult material) |
Bag End, Hobbiton, Westfarthing, the Shire
S.R. 1389
They had been a gift from Gilraen on Bilbo’s last visit to Rivendell. She
had used them for embroidery, but loaned them to him willingly and then
laughingly refused to take them back. She seemed delighted that he found
them so fascinating.
And they were. They had fine gold handles which were moulded and
cunningly engraved into the likeness of a bird’s legs and body. The sharp
silvery blades formed a long pointed beak and where the blades joined
sparkled a tiny blue eye. Engraved on the handles and down the side of
the blades were Sindarin runes. They were indeed fascinating and
undoubtedly ages old, but Gilraen had refused to hear of Bilbo returning
them. She had acted as if they were just a pair of embroidery scissors to
her, although he knew better.
The scissors were exquisite, as she had been when she had laughed and
joked with him about why he had needed her sewing skills and her scissors
-- a long torturous story involving an inebriated and rather amorous
dwarf. As he picked the scissors out of their nest of raw wool, he
wondered for a moment how Gilraen fared. When he had last visited with
her, she had finally shared with him the burden that shadowed her grey
eyes with concern and care. Her thoughts were always on her only son who
had left her in Rivendell while he went off to find his destiny beyond
that safe haven.
Bilbo looked the scissors over. Still sharp and rust free. He laid them
on the table and rubbed his hands together, looking around for the comb
that had just been in his hand and now was nowhere to be seen. Frodo had
mentioned more than once that the kitchen was getting rather cluttered and
Bilbo guiltily realized that his own books and papers were
beginning to take over in here.
“Frodo? We don’t have all day to do this, lad. You are going to be
late!”
He glanced out the window at the waning afternoon. He could hear the
Gaffer clipping away at something in the garden and smell the pungent
scent of fresh-cut greenery. Off in the distance, the red road climbed up
through rolling green hills. It was a beautiful day for a ramble, and his
thoughts wandered inevitably up that road, wondering what the view back
into the valley of the Water was like today. Likely all hazy green and
gold--
“I don’t know that we have to do it at all,” came the cheery voice of
Bilbo’s young cousin and heir from the kitchen doorway. “I think it is
fine just the...length it...” The voice trembled to a halt.
Bilbo shook off his reverie and turned to find Frodo standing there clad
only in dove grey breeches, a towel clutched over dark wet hair, gazing
out at the view that had captivated Bilbo -- the road twisting away like a
ribbon of rust in the sunlight slanting on the distant hills. For a
moment Bilbo thought the expression on Frodo’s face looked apprehensive
and uneasy. Just as quickly, the expression was gone and Frodo smiled.
Bilbo cleared his throat, uncertain of what he thought he had just seen on
Frodo’s face and heard in his voice. “It will be a perfect night for a
party, Frodo. A perfect night,” he said quickly. “Not too warm to dance,
and just chilly enough later to offer your coat to a lass in need of it.”
Frodo’s eyes were on him, twinkling as if the moment before had never
been, his expression incredulous. “Offer my coat,” Frodo peered at him as
if he had grown two heads. “Why would I do that?”
Bilbo frowned. “Well, lad, so that you can... forget that she has it--”
“Forget she has it!” Frodo interrupted, dropping his hands, apparently
heedless of the sodden curls now dripping on his shoulders and the floor
and everything else. “My new coat? That matches my new vest?”
“So you will have an excuse to see her the next day!” Bilbo finished,
exasperated with attempting to give advice to a tweenager about courting.
“Heavens, Frodo, I know those Brandybuck cousins of mine are somewhat--”
he broke off at the strange look on Frodo’s face. The lad looked as if he
were in pain.
When the laugh Frodo had apparently been struggling to hold back finally
escaped him, it was more of a strangled snort. But it certainly explained
the agonized expression. Frodo reached out and put one hand on Bilbo’s
shoulder. “I’m sorry, Uncle Bilbo, but the look on your face.”
Bilbo’s frown turned into an affectionate grimace, “Lad, you will be the
end of me. Now, get that mop of yours dry enough for me to trim up for
you. Hurry up, now!”
The bright face disappeared behind the fluffy towel once again as Frodo
scrubbed away at the unruly mass of curls.
Bilbo shook his head and smiled. “How did we let your hair get into this
state, I want to know?” he said aloud, more to himself than Frodo.
“Impossible to get me to sit still long enough, you said. Might end up
sideways, you said. The length suits you, you said. I am tempted to cut
it all off, you said,” came the muffled voice. The sparsely freckled face
suddenly appeared surrounded by towel, looking uncertain. “You won’t cut
it too short will you?”
“Of course not,” Bilbo sputtered. “But I distinctly remember getting my
hair cut a while back. Didn’t I cut yours?”
The towel’s motion didn’t stop. “Remember at the Great Smials? When
Aunt Eg cut mine after Freddy had to have his shorn completely off when he
managed to get into that glue in the stables? She was so upset that I
couldn’t keep him from sticking his head where it didn’t belong, that she
punished me by cutting mine too short as well. Everyone ribbed me about
it, asked if I had gotten into the glue myself. I had to hide out in the
old study with Freddy for the whole visit. It was humiliating. Even when
we came back here it was too short. Then we were back at Brandy Hall for
some important meeting you had. Uncle Rory cut yours. Mine was still
short enough. Don’t you remember? Uncle Rory threatened to take off the
tips of your ears when you told him that story about the dwarf--”
“Frodo, don’t call your Aunt Eglantine ‘Eg’, it isn’t polite.” Bilbo
grasped one slender shoulder and guided Frodo to a chair in front of him.
“She never seems bothered by me calling her Aunt Eg. She seems to like
it, as a matter of fact. And you and Uncle Paladin and Uncle Mac call her
Eg. I remember that she laughed at that story about the dwarf.
What was his name? He went to Rivendell with you that time and did
something to embarrass you -- something to do with a drinking contest with
some elves and--”
“Frodo!” It appeared to Bilbo that the lad wasn’t going to stop talking
until he ran out of air. “What’s gotten into you? You sound like some
twitterpatted tweener lass, chattering on like a magpie.”
There was no response and the towel kept moving.
“Frodo?”
“Yes, sir?” came the muffled, shaky response.
Bilbo grabbed at the flailing towel and gently tugged it out of Frodo’s
hands.
“What is it, Frodo?” The sudden babbling was unlike Frodo. Bilbo knew it
wasn’t the party. Hobbiton tweener social occasions would never undermine
Frodo’s hard-won poise, but obviously something was bothering him. Bilbo
wondered again if he had imagined the look on Frodo’s face and the tremble
in his voice earlier, if Frodo was worried about Bilbo’s yen for that road
shimmering in the distance. “What’s wrong, lad?” The dark head turned
and Bilbo suddenly dreaded the question he saw in those eyes.
“You want to leave, don’t you.” It was more a statement of fact than a
question, delivered in a sad, resigned voice.
The timid knock on the front door was clearly audible in the sudden
quiet. Bilbo hesitated just long enough for Frodo to launch himself out
of the kitchen and pad quickly through the parlour to the entry hall in
spite of his state of undress. Bilbo frowned thoughtfully as he listened
to the click of the latch and the hinges on the front door creak slightly
as it opened.
“Sam!” Bilbo was further dismayed at the relief in Frodo’s voice. Was the
lad so very terrified of hearing the response to his pronouncement? Did
Frodo really think that Bilbo would disappear down that road in the night
and leave him, once again, alone?
The young Gamgee’s end of the conversation was nearly inaudible.
“I am sure that he is. We are just cutting my hair and then he’ll be free
to look at your lesson for today.” The cheery voice did not sound at all
as if Frodo felt the foundations of his entire world shifting beneath his
feet.
Bilbo’s frown deepened and he stared unseeing at the scissors on the table
in front of him.
“...well, the Gaffer said I wasn’t ta disturb you nor Mister Bilbo if you
was still about, seeing as you’d both likely be busy with getting you
ready for the party tonight and all. He didn’t want me getting underfoot
if you were busy.” Sam’s childish voice floated through the parlour.
“And, begging your pardon, Master Frodo, but I can see that you’re not
yet...ready.”
“My apologies, Sam! I don’t usually go to the door half dressed. I am
indeed nearly ready. Uncle Bilbo just has to snip off a bit of this
unruly mop of mine and I am off!”
Frodo marched into the kitchen, nearly dragging a reluctant Samwise Gamgee
in his wake.
“Right, Uncle Bilbo?”
Bilbo managed to wipe the frown from his brow before he met Sam’s
uncertain gaze. “Indeed, I insist that you stay and make yourself some of
that milky tea you favour, Master Gamgee, and if you don’t mind, you can
make Master Frodo and I some tea as well.” He leaned forward and looked
toward the sideboard. “I’ve got some nice scones all baked up and ready
for you and I to eat during our lesson, eh? In the meanwhile, we will see
if I can make this young hooligan presentable for polite society once
more.”
Frodo slid into the chair, carefully avoiding meeting Bilbo’s questioning
look. Bilbo watched as Sam went to stand uncertainly by the table, gazing
over at the covered plate on the sideboard and biting his lip. He gripped
his treasured copybook before him as if it were a shield, apparently not
quite sure how the Gaffer would tell him to handle this particular turn of
events.
With a sigh, Bilbo placed the towel around Frodo and laid his hands on the
slender shoulders for a long moment. The dark head before him seemed to
sag downward ever so slightly. He glanced at Sam and wondered if the
youngster, so sensitive to Frodo’s moods, was picking up on the tension in
the room.
“Well, Master Gamgee?” Bilbo looked meaningfully at the teapot.
“Yessir.” Sam placed his copybook carefully on the table and went off to
the fireplace to check the kettle.
“All right then, let’s see if we can get a comb through this tangle.”
Bilbo fished the comb out of his vest pocket where it had been hiding all
along.
“I could do it.” There was only the slightest note of uncertainty in the
voice as Frodo held up his hand for the comb.
“Oh yes, and then we would end up with quite the mess I believe. Just
buck up lad, this could be a trifle painful.”
Indeed, Bilbo’s first attempt to pull the comb through the unruly locks
brought a stifled yelp from Frodo. But he clamped his jaw shut and didn’t
utter another sound while Bilbo struggled with the tangles.
The kitchen was quiet, except for the crackle of the fire and the soothing
sounds of young Sam going about making a pot of tea and carefully pouring
two cups. Sam carefully doctored them to the specifications he knew so
well, then set them carefully within reach of Bilbo and Frodo.
“Thank you, Samwise.”
“Yer welcome, Mister Bilbo, sir.”
Bilbo stared at the damp, nearly black curls twining around his fingers as
he concentrated on detangling a particularly large snarl. Certainly, he
would love to hie off down that road -- to see exotic places and have
thrilling adventures once more. But just to leave? No doubt he was
selfish. There were moments when he regretted adopting Frodo as his
heir, regretted that commitment, regretted tying himself to Bag End, to
the Shire, to the agonies and ecstasies of a tweenager’s life. But there
were moments that he would not trade having Frodo in his life like this
for his youth fully returned and the open road warm under his feet. Yet
he found it so hard to just tell him, and Frodo, in turn,
apparently found it equally hard to ask. He cursed the Baggins’
stubbornness yet again as he yanked fruitlessly at one particular knot in
Frodo’s hair.
There was a muffled yip from Frodo and an answering squeak of empathy from
Sam.
“Sorry, lad.” Bilbo wasn’t certain who he was apologizing to.
Sam had made his own cup of very milky, very sweet tea and now stood
beside the table cradling his cup carefully, his large hazel eyes on
Frodo’s face. Bilbo realized that he could almost see the expression on
Frodo’s face just by looking at Sam’s. The young Gamgee’s face was a
study at the moment and he almost laughed at his expression of dismay and
empathy.
Then Sam was gazing at his feet, as he was wont to do. The lad never met
the gaze of anyone he considered his “better” for more than a moment
before he was diffidently looking down, the Gaffer’s training holding
true. If young Sam had a hat, it would have been clutched in his hands in
a respectful imitation of his father. Then Sam’s eyes locked on the
scissors lying on the table and his cup lowered slowly. Bilbo watched as
the blond head leaned forward and knew that the scissors had fascinated
the young Gamgee enough to make him forget his father’s dictates about
proper behaviour. Bilbo smiled.
“They are quite lovely aren’t they?”
“Yessir. They look like a bird.” Sam breathed, setting his cup down
carefully.
Bilbo moved the comb just in time to avoid a painful loss of hair as Frodo
turned his head to see what had elicited such delight in Sam’s voice. As
Bilbo slowly and thoughtfully took up combing again, he wondered if the
story of the scissors might just be what was needed here.
“Indeed -- they were made by the elves you know, ” Bilbo began.
The huge eyes, gold with wonder, turned up to Bilbo’s then back down to
the scissors, now a treasure beyond price as far as the young gardener was
concerned. “Really?”
“Really.” Bilbo grinned back, relieved. “Like my sword.”
“The one over the fireplace?” Sam queried.
Bilbo nodded. “They even have Sindarin runes engraved on them, just like
Sting.”
“Sindarin.” Sam moved around the table to lean closer to the object of
his attention. “What do they say?”
“Frodo, practice your Sindarin and translate quickly for our Samwise so I
can get on with this before the party is over.” Bilbo combed on, smiling
to himself.
He watched as Frodo reached for the scissors, but they were just beyond
his reach on the table, unless he chanced a worse injury to his already
tender scalp.
Sam’s fingers moved toward the scissors, then he looked up questioningly.
“Go ahead, pick them up! They aren’t fragile. They will likely outlast
all of us,” Bilbo assured him.
Sam gingerly picked up the scissors, a solemn look on his face, and handed
them to Frodo who reverently turned them around to view the delicate runes
engraved on the handle and down the blade. Sam came around the table.
Bilbo watched as Frodo pulled Sam close and carefully held the scissors in
front of both of them, the gold and dark head bent together.
Bilbo continued to comb carefully even as the dark head bent over the
scissors, working out the last of the snarls in the quickly drying hair.
“Risto
vae, hebel vanias pant an-uir,”
Frodo pronounced carefully.
“Good, good,” Bilbo encouraged.
“‘Cut’,” Frodo began, his finger tracing the word. “‘Good’.
No. ‘Cut well’?”
“That’s right, or ‘cut with care’, either will do,” Bilbo
encouraged.
“‘Kept’?” Frodo queried.
“‘Keeping’, see the ending? That means –ing, ‘keeping’.
“‘Cut well, keeping’,” Frodo stopped, his finger on the next word,
Sam leaning almost in front of him.
Bilbo worked quietly, imagining the furrow between Frodo’s brows that
appeared whenever his young cousin was confronted with a particularly
enjoyable puzzle. Bilbo smiled to himself.
“‘Vanias’ ?” Frodo sounded out carefully, “I don’t know this one,
Bilbo.”
“‘Beauty’,” Bilbo answered with assurance, “or ‘loveliness’,
whichever.”
“‘Cut well, keeping beauty...’ ” Frodo frowned. “‘Full’ ?”
“‘Whole’ or ‘full’ or ‘intact’. Any of those will
do.”
“‘Cut well, keeping beauty intact forever’. ” Frodo pointed to each
word as he translated for Sam.
“Very well done!! I prefer ‘Cut with care, keeping loveliness intact
forever’, but you know there are different translations possible of
anything of this sort. That was quite good, Frodo, quite good!” Bilbo
answered, watching Sam’s tanned face turn up to his. He hoped the
tentative smile there was a reflection of the expression on Frodo’s face.
“Mister Bilbo sir, beggin’ your pardon, sir. But how can you cut a thing
and keep it...” Sam began, then hesitated over the word.
“Intact,” came Frodo’s barely audible prompt.
“Intact too?”
“That is good question, and I shall answer it while I proceed to cut this
scruffy mane. With care, of course.” Bilbo’s lips quirked into a smile as
he held out his hand expectantly over Frodo’s shoulder.
The scissors were held up obediently and Bilbo grasped the handles. “Now,
perhaps I can answer that question, Master Gamgee, by telling you the
story of how I came by these scissors. Would you like to hear that?”
Sam’s answer was to sit down on the floor next to Frodo’s chair, not
moving his eyes from Bilbo.
“Well, I take that for a 'yes'.” Bilbo cleared his throat. “On my last
trip to Rivendell -- you’ve heard me speak of Rivendell?”
Sam nodded, eyes wide. He recognized the name well.
“On my last trip to Rivendell, I got involved in a bit of a tussle with a
dw--” He felt Frodo’s shoulders tense and saw him turn toward Sam.
“--thorn bush and ripped my best trousers.” He began to cut the dark
locks before him quickly, in his element at last.
“I went searching for some scissors and a needle and thread, being a bit
embarrassed to ask someone else to repair them for me but needing them
fixed quickly so I could recite a poem I had written in the Hall of Fire
that night.”
“The Hall of Fire,” Sam repeated reverently.
“Yes. Well, I found someone plying needle and thread in the gardens,
doing embroidery, and she kindly volunteered her sewing tools in my time
of need.”
“An elf lady?” Sam queried dreamily.
“No, a human lady, and a very lovely one at that.”
Frodo turned his head at that. “A big person? In Rivendell?”
“Watch it, lad, or I will make a mess of this!” Bilbo sputtered
then smiled. “Indeed, a big person, in Rivendell.”
It seemed Sam’s eyes could not get any bigger, but they did. The
combination of elves and humans in Rivendell was obviously overwhelming.
“Well, where was I?” Bilbo paused in mid snip. “Oh yes. So Gilraen,
that is her name, Gilraen, offered to mend my trousers right there in the
gardens. And let me tell you, Master Gamgee, the gardens of Rivendell are
not to be believed. I hope someday you can see them for yourself.”
“Yes sir,” Sam agreed.
“So, Gilraen brings out these lovely scissors and proceeds to trim the
tear and cut her thread...”
“How did Gilraen come to be in Rivendell? Was she visiting there?” Frodo
asked quietly.
“She is the guest of Elrond Half-Elven.” Bilbo kept clipping carefully,
the dark shiny locks sliding and curling around his fingers as though
alive. “And very dear to him and his kin. You’ve heard me speak of Elrond,
have you not, Samwise?”
“Yessir,” Sam crossed his arms on Frodo’s thigh and rested his chin there,
never taking his eyes off of Bilbo. Frodo’s slender fingers threaded
absently through Sam’s gold locks.
“So, Gilraen brings out these lovely scissors and I must admit, I reacted
to them much as you did today,” Bilbo went on. “I was fascinated by
them. She found it difficult to work with me leaning in to get a look at
the runes myself.” Bilbo paused for a moment, remembering the sweet scent
of the lovely lady of the Dunedain -- that memory remained with him more
clearly than even the smell of the gorgeous blooms in the Rivendell
gardens.
“Finally she held them out to me and I took them without even realizing
what I was doing. She pulled another pair out of her basket--”
“Another pair?” Frodo exclaimed.
“No, not exactly like these, but the same exquisite workmanship. It was
almost as if she knew she would need another pair that day,” Bilbo broke
off, thinking suddenly of the foresight of the Numenoreans and wondering--
“And she gave you this pair?” Sam finished.
Bilbo paused and picked up his cup of tea to take a long slow sip, then
focused once more on the task at hand. Frodo took advantage of the break
to reach for his own cup and gulp it down before it was filled with hair
clippings. Bilbo moved to the side and began cutting carefully near
Frodo’s ear. Dark curls lay scattered on the stone tiles around his
feet.
“Yes, she did. She laughed when I told her I could not possibly use them
for sewing as she did. They were far too big,” he smiled. “She told me
that I should find something useful to do with them, and she forbade me to
put them into a glass case to admire.”
“Forbade you?” Frodo questioned.
“Yes. She said they were meant to be used and they were inscribed with
instructions as to their use,” Bilbo went on, “I read the runes and had
about the same reaction as you did, Samwise. So she explained to me what
they meant.” His expression softened.
“She recited it as if someone else had told it to her, over and over, like
an ancient tale. ‘When you cut anything, cut it thoughtfully and with
care, for things were made whole by the Valar and should remain so. But,
if the time has come for cutting, for trimming, for separating,” he paused
over that word, only for a moment. “Then it must be done with love of the
whole’.” Bilbo saw the subtle change in Frodo’s demeanour -- in the way
he held his head -- in the way his hand lay on Sam’s hair.
“Like pruning.” Sam’s expression was awed. He lifted his head from
Frodo’s knee, his face rapt. “You must be careful, but you have ta cut
away dead wood an’ open up the plant for light an’ water. An’ you have ta
separate the irises--”
“Exactly!” Bilbo exclaimed. “Like pruning.”
Sam suddenly realized he had spoken out of turn and his face reddened.
Frodo reached out and tweaked the tip of one ear and Sam’s embarrassed
look quickly melted into one of delight. Bilbo rejoiced once more at the
close friendship that had developed between the two so quickly, despite
the difference in age.
“Gilraen told me that all growing things, all beautiful things have right
times and right places to be cut. And if you study carefully, you can see
it -- the scissors will find it.” Bilbo continued to cut as he spoke.
“Even cloth has a life that you must respect when you cut it to make
clothing.”
“Cloth has a life?” Sam exclaimed.
“Certainly, my dear boy.” Bilbo delighted in his audience. Sam was
asking all the right questions. “For it is made from something that once
grew and lived -- wool from sheep, linen from flax. Gilraen told me that
she learned this lesson all too well in her sewing, when she cut one piece
too short and left another too long.”
“Just as I could cut Frodo’s hair too short.” Bilbo wisely pulled back the
scissors, expecting Frodo to do exactly what he did -- stiffen and start
to turn. “But of course I won’t.” Frodo relaxed again and Bilbo smiled
conspiratorially at Sam, who grinned back. “But, then again, if we let it
grow too long, Frodo here might trip over it or run into a tree or be
mistaken for one of the Wild Men.” Bilbo smirked as he moved to the other
side to continue his work and Frodo made an undecipherable sound under his
breath.
“And Gilraen had learned this lesson with her son as well,” Bilbo
continued.
“Her son?” Frodo queried.
“Yes indeed, a young man named Estel, whom I had met many years before.
Gilraen and Estel had lived at Rivendell for a long time, safe and happy,”
Bilbo responded. “In fact, Elrond is Estel’s foster father. Estel grew
up in Rivendell learning both elven and human lore. But he is destined
for greater things than a life confined in the safe haven of Rivendell, as
worthy and lovely as it is. So when he reached maturity, he left
Rivendell to seek his way in the wide world.”
“He left his mum?” Sam asked, suddenly sitting up straight.
Bilbo stopped clipping just as Frodo turned his head. Bilbo watched as
the two motherless boys gazed for a moment into each other’s eyes and Sam
began worrying his lower lip with his teeth. It hadn’t been a year yet
since they had lost Bell; Bilbo chided himself for not realizing this
story was bound to remind Sam of his mother.
“Yes, he left his mother,” Bilbo continued softly, watching as Frodo
reached out to touch Sam’s shoulder and Sam’s brown hand reached up to
clasp Frodo’s wrist. “And he left Rivendell.”
“Of course, his mother didn’t want him to leave.” Bilbo continued to clip
as Sam lowered his head. Frodo’s hand remained on Sam’s shoulder. “She
wanted to keep him safe and happy in Rivendell forever. She wanted him to
stay her little boy -- forever.” Bilbo cleared his throat uncomfortably,
watching his own lad carefully.
There was a long moment with only the sound of the fire and the kettle,
and in the distance, the Gaffer, spading the earth in slow, measured
strokes. Then, Bilbo began clipping again, carefully, near Frodo’s ear.
“Gilraen told me that children are growing things too,” Bilbo went on,
finding that his hands were a bit shaky as he cut. “Just like your
irises, Samwise. Or Frodo’s hair. And,” Bilbo took a breath, “just like
any growing thing, there is a right time and a wrong time for them to
become separate from you. Otherwise, just like those irises of yours, if
you don’t separate them at the right time--”
“They don’t bloom right.” The gold head lifted, and despite the pain on
that young face and the hint of tears that Bilbo could see in his eyes,
there was a growing understanding on those features.
“Exactly, my boy, exactly,” Bilbo almost sighed with relief. “And, if you
separate them too soon, they won’t bloom well either. Right Samwise?”
“Yessir, that’s right,” Sam said softly.
Bilbo moved around the two to work, at last, on the wayward curls that
straggled into Frodo’s eyes -- eyes that were watching Sam anxiously and
avoiding his gaze. “It is that way with children too. Like Estel and
you, Samwise, and Frodo here -- you all have things to do and to be in the
wide world. Important things. We have to know when the time is right to
keep you safe and make sure you grow up sure and strong, and when the time
is right for you to go out into the world and do those important things.
It is a hard decision sometimes, to let you go or to keep you safe. But
we know. A time comes when we know. As Gilraen said, you know
instinctively when and where to cut, if you let your heart tell you. Just
like Gilraen knew when she needed to let Estel go. Just like we know that
Frodo here might trip over his own hair if we don’t cut it now.”
Sam smiled tentatively and Frodo’s mouth quirked.
“But, my young gardener, you tell us, even though those irises you
separate have been pulled away from the parent plant, even though they are
divided and may even be on the other side of the hill--” Bilbo prompted.
“They’re still the same. They’re the same colour an’ all. They even
bloom better and bigger, just in a different place.” Sam continued, really
smiling now, his hand moving away from Frodo’s wrist to move descriptively
as he spoke.
“Precisely.” Bilbo watched as Frodo smiled at Sam and Sam smiled back.
He continued to trim the ragged locks. “Children are like that too. One
day you have to let them go. One day, they have to be on their own and do
what they need to do in the world, but they are always a part of you.” He
pointed with the scissors at all the dark curls lying on the floor. “Just
as Frodo’s hair is still Frodo’s hair, even though it is messing up our
kitchen floor at the moment.”
Those unfathomable blue eyes finally lifted to meet his. There was just
the tiniest glint of humour in their depths.
“So, if you ‘Cut well, keeping beauty intact forever’ as the
scissors say you should, then you will have a whole, and separate parts as
well,” Bilbo went on, his eyes locked on Frodo’s as he continued to cut.
“An’ so what happened to Gilraen’s son?” Sam asked.
“Estel,” Bilbo reminded him. “Gilraen let Estel go to make his way in the
world and to learn all the things he needs to learn. He left with her
blessing -- and her love.”
“Is Gilraen lonely?” Frodo asked quietly.
“I imagine she misses Estel terribly, my boy, just as I would miss you if
we had to part.” Bilbo reached out one hand to run his fingers down the
side of Frodo’s face and Frodo reached up to pull the soft fingers close
to his cheek. They remained that way for a long moment.
Sam watched the exchange with wide eyes.
“But she knows that his story is her story too, just as his destiny is
hers. They are one whole, together or separate.” Frodo released Bilbo’s
hand and Bilbo finished his work on the now-dry hair with a flourish of
the comb.
“There now, that wasn’t so bad, was it lad?”
Frodo smiled into his older cousin’s eyes for a moment, answering a
different question, then both hands reached up and touched his hair
gingerly and the smile turned impish.
“I don’t know Bilbo. It feels too short to me.”
“Get off with you scamp!” Bilbo pulled the towel off of Frodo’s shoulders
with a flourish and a grimace. “Wasting my time and fine hair cutting
skills!”
Frodo stood up, running his hands through his hair and dusting off his
breeches quickly. Then he turned to look at Bilbo for a long moment.
Bilbo reached out and put a hand on his shoulder. “I am good with
scissors, my boy. I know when to cut...and when not to. As our young
gardener here knows, there are some things you just don’t take a chance
with separating until the time is right.”
Frodo’s hand reached up to grip his lightly, his eyes conveying something
that the two of them rarely seemed to manage to say aloud.
“Now get!” Bilbo waved his hand.
Frodo scampered off toward his room.
Bilbo turned to smile at Sam, realizing the youngster had sensed something
else was being said, but certain that the young Gamgee was not sure what
it was. For a moment Sam smiled back at him, then, just as quickly, Sam
realized what he was doing and lowered his eyes deferentially. Bilbo
followed his gaze, noting the silky curls darkening the floor beneath
their feet. “Quite a bit of our Frodo left scattered about on the kitchen
floor, eh Samwise?”
“I’ll clean it up, Mister Bilbo!” Sam scampered off to get the broom and
dustpan.
“Thank you, my lad.”
“That Estel sir, is he all right? Does he write to his mum an’ all?” Sam
asked seriously as he came back into the kitchen.
“Well, my boy, the post in the wide world is not quite what it is in the
Shire, but Gandalf tells me that he has heard of the deeds of Estel now
and again and that he is living up to his mother’s hopes for him. He
keeps in touch with his mother as best he can.”
“Gandalf?” Sam whispered, his eyes wide. “Gandalf knows Estel too?”
“Yes indeed, lad.” Bilbo drank down his cold tea and went to put more
water on. He watched as Sam carefully loaded the dustpan with hair
clippings and looked about.
“What do you need, lad? The dust bin is over there, as always.”
“No sir. I mean to keep these, Mister Bilbo, if you don’t mind.”
“Keep them? Whyever for?”
“Well sir, me mum, she always saved our clippings in a little pillow to
keep her needles free o’ rust. And now...now I’m feeling that it might’ve
been to keep a bit of us near by her too, if you take my meaning.” Sam
responded, blushing, “I would like to keep these meself, sir, if’n you
don’t mind.”
“I see.” Bilbo nodded knowingly. He ploughed through the stacks of paper
and found a likely cast off. “Here, fold them up in that to carry them
home with you.”
“Thank you, sir.” Sam folded the paper carefully and dropped the precious
clippings in.
“Now, would you like to see the Sindarin runes on Sting as well?” Bilbo
said quickly, brushing his hands with one eye on the kettle.
Sam’s face brightened. “Yes sir!”
They moved into the parlour where Bilbo pointed out the runes engraved
down the length of his sword. “This word here, this is ‘Maegnas’. That
is Sting’s name in Sindarin.” Bilbo looked down at the bright face,
filled with wonder. “This word here--”
Frodo slid into the room. “So, do I meet with approval? Sam, look at
these new clothes Uncle Bilbo had made for me. What do you think?”
They both turned. Frodo now wore a dove grey jacket that matched his
breeches and was trimmed in deep blue velvet. Under the jacket was a
brocade vest stitched with shimmering deep blue and silver thread over a
crisp white shirt. With the sun glinting his hair with auburn, his face
flushed with exertion, and his eyes burning that exact shade of deep blue,
there was only one word that Sam could find to describe what he saw.
“Vanias,” he breathed.
Both Bilbo and Frodo stared at him in disbelief, and then Frodo laughed.
“I’ll take that as a compliment to Bilbo’s taste in clothes.”
“Well, I think we can skip our lesson for today, if you pick up vocabulary
that quickly!” Bilbo joined in. “But I will have to agree with Samwise,
Frodo. Just try to remember which of the many young lasses you lend your
jacket to.” He winked broadly at Frodo. Sam looked from one to the other
as if wondering why Frodo would lend his lovely jacket to some silly
tweenaged lass.
“I don’t know when I’ll be back, Bilbo,” Frodo started for the door.
“Don’t worry, Frodo, my boy, I’ll be here whenever you get home.”
Frodo turned at those words, saw the meaningful look on Bilbo’s face, and
smiled.
*******
FINIS
This tale is finished, but the story of this very special pair of scissors
goes on.
Many thanks
to Elhath on Lindelohte - the Quenya/Sindarin Discussion Board at
http://pub83.ezboard.com/belfcomp,
a service of the Elfling Yahoo Group,
for the translation of the Sindarin runes on the scissors.
And, as always, thanks to
my incomparable beta
Willow-wode!
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